Relevations & Reflections...

Updates!!! =)

2006-05-10T05:34:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! so sorry, been such a lazy one tat i've not been updating. hee, thanks to nudge from kaili =P hee.l actually it's not tat i've been lazy,but i've caught a vicious, an EXTREMELY vicious bug(virus) from a patient...and i've been coughing, little fluing(i know there's no such word..but.. hee since bush can coin the word "decider", why can't i? oops, hee know i'm no where near the power of mr bush though) and fever that goes off only to return at times and is only well managed by that of panadol... so much so tat i've been sleeping and resting so much...hah not much work done. AND...drumrolls...this illness i've got for 3 wks already and luckily, i'm finally only getting much better now, though hmm weird my throat is itching a little(dun give me a fright).

okay, been doing my surgery posting, and see stuffs and i enjoyed it. =) happy happy, clap clap. but of coz my eyes opened alot more now... saw many sad cases...financial difficulties, etc to name a few.

hee, on second thoughts, realize tat i've let my doctors down by writing the history of my illness as above in such a fashion. hah, if it's mr c.k.h, he will surely scream at me and then scold me and then rant how can u write it like that?! then juz scold u inside out, upside down....brrrrrr...scary....
anyway, here goes:

hx: 21 yo ch female student, p/w cough, fever and runny nose x 3/52. Fever, a/w chills and rigors, highest--37.4oC, relieved by panadol. Productive cough--whitish phlegm, worsens on lying down, not relieved by cough suppressants prev. runny nose--comes and goes, no phx sinusitis.
no sig pmhx.
haha mind mental block...evil mosquitoes are stinging me. more updates soon! need to go prepare for my project presentation tmr since it's coming to the end of my surgery elective posting. tata! hope to meet up wif my frens again and haf more fun~

End-of-posting Test!!!

2006-04-07T06:56:00.000-07:00

I dun like bossy people. Anyway, no one likes bossy people. Boy, i'm glad i've ended my posting in imh until the next round in year 5. but sigh, psychiatric exams looming up. i'm not studying. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Untitled

2006-03-28T07:55:00.000-08:00

It's been a long while since I last wrote an entry and this time (like the usual reasons), I wrote again when I feel down. I've been feeling upset recently, perhaps acutely so during the psychiatric posting. Maybe it's coz of my past encounters with depression. Probably can diagnosed myself as having a major depressive mood disorder (anhedonia + depressed mood) and paranoid delusions. I feel like i'm so alone in the world. I felt I have difficulty communicating with my parents and my friends are too busy for me to probably care about what's going in my life. But then again, there's still the occasionally calls and smses though I wished there are more, especially with the mood i'm going through now. I feel like it's the end of the world where i'm alone standing.. all alone. I know i'm not making sense right now. My mind's all a clutter. I'm upset with everyone, I'm upset mostly with myself. I'm probably upset with my parents. I wish my friends would come and talk to me and not the other way round. I wish there are more care, like how i cared for my friends. I think I've never been one to be to good with expressing what I want for fear of being mistaken, for fear of being seen as wanting, for not wanting to tell others how they shld run their lives. There are some I wished I could have kept as friends, that even though things have changed, why dun we be friends? that mebbe as friendship continue, perhaps there can be new relevations and perhaps something of a different light or something gd and pure can come out of it. Mebbe I'm being naive, mebbe I see this world through rose-tinted glasses. Mebbe it's so..and mebbe that's what making me sad. That i'm turning into someone I don't wanna see myself turning into. Not a cynic. I realized that when i get cornered or stressed or forced, I turned into someone I am not really. I simply morphed. Probably into something ugly. Then when things passed, when i settle down and get to think, i realize i'm back to my usual self and then perhaps regrets might come and that I didn't handle things as well as I thought i did. But then again, i've tried. As it is everything takes 2 hands to clap. So as it is, probably the other parties involved didn't try to. Wish everyone will just be more considerate and sensitive towards others' feelings. Think of others and how they would feel if you're in their shoes.
I am rudely awakened by some memories that i haf repressed at the back of my mind. My aunty thinks if only the other party knows how to react better and think of how others would feel and think, then things wouldn't turn out this way. Anyway, i realized i'm such a weird creature who needs to be loved and needs a lot of TLC. oh well... i think i'm like my mum. She needs a lot of attention and TLC but she wouldn't say or admit so. And I also realized I'm so like her in the sense that we both will deny and say we dun need such TLC when in fact we actually really need it... prob it's the lose face mentality in my family. We've never been a family that openly, outrightly show love and care out in the open, but we will show it in our own unique ways. It's probably weird..,but I can;t really explain why people function in their little own unique sense. Anyway, I can't really think anymore. CAn';t really express too well how i feel. Will probably continue in Part II. i just need this to vamp out my feelings.

2005-09-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

I AM SO PISSED OFF WIF MYSELF! I M thinking abt so many things. DID i MAKE A MISTAKE?! I dun think so. My heart aches... I m so irritated and agitated wif myself. I'm lost in the wilderland. I appreciate and want the concern.. but I ALSO DUNNO why i ache more and i wanna juz get away wif it... DUN ask me WHy...

I feel miserable.....

2005-05-15T05:31:00.000-07:00

A lot of things happened recently, so much so that I've lost track of it. I feel so miserable now about so many many things. Not a single bit of feeling happy. I feel numbed instead and very dejected about the way things go. No one really understands me. Not a single person understands or empathize my predicament. Everyone just knows how to add problems and stress to my already pent-up life. WHY?! I just wish better and happier things will happen in my life. I simply want to have gd friends around me--people I can talk to and relate to and have fun with in life. I don't want to complicate matters unless it's the right time and the right one. Already, some things are happening in the hospital that I'm feel miserable and lonely about. No one bothers. No one cares. No one wants to find out. Where are my so-called true friends? No longer any laughter as I had during my happy hcjc days.

I remembered all the laughter I used to share with my friends. Things were much simpler then. No one bugs me. No one intrudes into my privacy. I want the things set the way I want it. Simple and no fuss.

I want to be gd friends with the pple I like to hang out with, but why must we complicate matters further? sigh, I really dunno if I should be writing all these. No one really understands how I feel or think. Does anyone cares about what's going through me? Can't they just leave some things as they are? As it is, right now, I'm very bothered by some things....... esp the things going on during my clinic days. I should be happy that I'm going clinics. Instead, I'm troubled and feel tired. No one asks me why. I feel detached. Where have my friends here gone to? Disappeared into thin air? And, I feel pressured by lotsa stuffs too. But being constrained, I can only write this much and read that much. Just venting out random thoughts. Sigh, I can only say why I only keep blogging when I'm down and sad?

Bangkok Trip

2005-04-14T20:40:00.000-07:00

Yippee, i'm now at Changi airport terminal 2 blogging this post. Gonna fly off to bangkok soon. Can't wait to go shopping and buying all the stuffs I need and as well getting and buying stuffs for my friends too. Hee hee. See you all again, esp my future cg mates at ttsh on 25th april! Gonna enjoy myself! hehe and shall get all the chocs and cookies and cup noodles on the sq flight again. hehe. tee heehee. =P

2005-03-21T07:56:00.000-08:00

i have not been blogging for a real real long while. GOSH! oh man, so fast and m2 has finally almost come to an end and i will be entering clinics. Anyway, haha wat m i talking abt? I of coz do wish m2 to end so i can go on to a more interesting and exciting yr in m3! Microbiology, immunology and neuroscience exams coming... haf to mug real hard. oh well, i keep taking breaks, need to cut that soon. dunno why, but i got a bit depressed in btw here n there, hmmpf! shall haf to cut out my mere mortal depression soon! sigh, i wanna go hongkong, yet why is it that it's so EXPENSIVE to stay in the hotels there?! esp for hongkong island, the hotels are of EXORBITANT RATES! oh dear, i just heard from my fren HY that LK, our senior, managed to spot the essay questions for microb and tat's how he passed...i hope, as my fren R hopes, that i will be able to do very well and can remember everything and do everything for those that came out. I'm praying very hard, just as R is praying very hard for me too. Thanks R for being always by my side. I hope I can do well and look forward to being there with R and get onto m3.Haha, sorry that R must always keep sparing me a listening ear even no matter how busy u r(good luck for ur diving tests k? I'm sure u can make it! I have faith in u. hahaha, u haf so much faith and belief in me, that I definitely do in u too!), and C and QX and many others too, like my dear old counsellor ZS...Oh, btw, must really thank C for giving me that cute cute bear. Realli thanks alot! and it did help to cheer me up alot. hehe, i bet "non-hairy"(the bear's name) is waving and speaking pig language to u. hehe. I feel so blessed, with all these good frens around me. Frens who care and are always by my side. I'm so touched and blessed. Wonder how's QX now... haha is ur house fully painted by now?

2005-01-05T04:44:00.000-08:00

Surface is just skin-deep. Myriads of facets of life can only be seen only if you walk through the beautiful glass covering the surface and be enlightened by the meaning behind it all. Disappointment comes only when you are just absorbed by the surface and being totally encased by it, so much so it obscures your view of the inner true self-being. And when the real being descends upon you and comes aknocking on your door and then you suddenly wake up, that's when the real feelings of disappointment kicks in. But never ever say too late, for being enlightened is still better than being absorbed by the beautiful but empty facade. Some just do not know how to treasure and some just let the sands of time slip away, out of the fingers into the world of neverland.

2004-12-23T07:49:00.000-08:00

wow, it was so nice! I and my mum were at holland v at night when i saw haagen daaz and asked my mum if we shall try out the seven heaven(is that the correct name?) and gosh, wow, the icecream with 7 different flavours, strawberries, kiwis, peach, nuts, cookies(very small somemore! so much so that my mum commented where can she get such cute and small cookies) and wafers!!!!!!! EVEN with dry ice overflowing! YUMMY! it looks so nice that I took a shot of it using my phone! BUT, it's a pain on the pocket.... sigh.... it puts as $33.80++...gosh and everything tallies up to $39!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmm, but yet again, it was a great evening and one of those few times I'm out with my mum and esp at my favourite place and bohemian place(holland v) and at night somemore!!!!!! it's very beautiful at night and so quiet and peaceful while we ate our ice-cream. And me and my mum had a great talk and it's real nice and beautiful.
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And memories begin to flood my mind...those beautiful nights where I was in holland v..though unfortunately nothing work out. Hmmm... it's nice too to spend christmas with my family. That's what by being single and unattached means! Shall see what I can work out for new yr eve countdown..hehe trying to contact pple and get all my friends. Wanna meet more pple and enlarge my social circle. waiting for more fun to come up!

2004-12-19T08:04:00.000-08:00

wat's happening to me? why one bad thing after another? sob..my handphone was stolen! i can't believe it! I was walking in suntec with my friend, and just when I was about to pay for the card and looking for my wallet, I saw the zipper of my bag being open! And my handphone was gone! Obviously, someone who's so terrible had no liang2 xin1 and stole my newest handphone! And it's a nokia 7260 somemore! SOB SOB...and i dunno how...now so isolated and contactless.. juz realize how hp has become such an integrated part of my life that i can't do without it. =(

2004-12-15T06:37:00.000-08:00

Argh, christmas and new yr are coming. shucks, dunno what to do...sigh..i dun wan to be alone.....

2004-12-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

Something wrong with blogger, so I couldn't blog yesterday. Oh, wat a sensation the Singapore Idol finals was. Taufik sang extremely well yesterday and he's the superior singer of the 2, though I wun deny that Sly has the x factor and popularity factor. But i think given the fact that the winner will have to compete in world idols and the fact that the winner shld be more westernized and has a better english enuciation, I think taufik cuts a better deal and shld be crowned. Not to say that sly is bad either, for I do think he shld be given a chance to produce a record too given his sky-high popularity. And of coz, without doubt as to who I voted for yesterday.... haha I think I was outta my mind by making 10+ calls!(hmm, but i normally dun vote and hardly do... tee hee ) ( anyway, juz coz I stuck to the idea that the better singer shld win and not disgrace us on the world idol stage) sorry to sq and other sly fans(esp the many frens of mine who are sly fans) dun throw rotten eggs at me. PS: sq i noe u're very sad and cried when sly lost, hey dun worry yeah? he's gonna be producing a record too and u can go spend all ur money on him. hehe

Lost...........Looking for the light to shine my way through

2004-11-23T08:23:00.000-08:00

As you can see, there's hardly any entry so far. I've been lagging and dun feel like blogging. Someone asked me why do I want to blog my emotions and thoughts in the public domain... guess it's kinda disapproving... and I shall respect that...
Dunno why I feel sian, yet there's so much things happening in my life right now. I dunno if I should be happy, or whatever.

2004-10-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

I was taken aback by the surprise that my friends had in store for me. I thought my birthday was long past, way back on last Thursday and I truly thought all celebration had ended. And once again, I thought I was having juz a normal lunch with my friends. Well, it started off with me juz arriving in the LT this morning, then later HY and YR came in. I asked both of them whether they are still gonna skip lunch or have lunch with me. I was half-expecting them to tell me "oh, we're gonna skip lunch today again." And surprise, they told me "no, let's haf lunch today, NUH can?" I was like " wow, what a change! yay, let's go haf lunch today. hahaha a change from the days of you two keep skipping lunch." actually, they more of snack on bread and biscuits usually during lunchtime. hardworking and in a way to help them keep fit. Anyway, we went to nuh later, but I was quite surprised to see so many of our friends coming with us. I thought," maybe YR or HY asked them, though I didn't." and then I thought nothing of it. Just kind of surprised. Haha, I'm getting a bit sian and tired blogging. Think I losing patience. Anyway, FAST FORWARD. Okay, when we finished lunch, I saw Hy and Yr at the bengawan solo stall. Being curious, I decided to walk towards them, and then I saw them carrying a huge box and walking towards us. Only then, it jus struck me that they were celebrating my bdae! Gosh, how blur I am! actually i really didn't expect it coz i thought my bdae was long over and boy, I'm so touched! Thanks hy, yr, sm, zh, priya, wk, gh and yt. Wow, I really believe now how good my friends are at keeping secrets. I'm really bowled over that you all came to celebrate my bdae and thanks yt for taking photographs. And I made my wish(wishes in fact) and hope they come true. =)
I shall put up the photographs much later when i get them from yt(tat's if I remember)
Thanks to all my friends for celebrating my bdae with me and wishing me! What a yr it is to hit 20 yrs old!

Indemnity FORM

2004-10-08T22:37:00.000-07:00

Hmm, mebbe I should act on my friend's "advice", haha, and also follow the profs' footsteps and prevent myself from being put into any tight spot or hot soup by stating that whatever I've said in the previous post about my school might be out of what little understanding or knowledge I have of the present situation and given the fact that I'm only a pathetic student, perhaps alot of things are not known to me or are out of my reach. So, pardon me if I've wronged anyone, but if anyone can, juz think and try to improve the students' welfare. I think that's more impt than anything to be on the way to world-class, yeah? So, I hereby declare to be not liable to anything said. alamak, my legal language sucks. Shld consult my law frens some day. Tee hee hee.

TO HELL WITH THE COPYRIGHT RULES!

2004-10-08T21:47:00.000-07:00

Well, look at my title. That says it all. it's not that I dun advocate or support copyright rules. I definitely do. I even agree that copyright rules shld be there to protect the authors' royalty. BUT, hey, at the least be flexible. esp to us poor students. Let me cite some incidents.

My friend from another fac was telling me that her prof did not give them lecture notes 'coz the prof was saying that it's due to protection of copyright. He's afraid of infringing the copyright rules and getting fined or even sued in the process if he gives them the powerpt slides as notes.!!! wah, so STRAIGHT! no wonder everyone says SINGAPOREANS have the NO U-TURN syndrome! i'm juz pissed 'coz I can't believe how inflexible the administration in nus is! I REALLY SERIOUSLY DOUBT how nus can become a 1st-class university if this goes on! I mean students need their notes to study and I truly emphatise with my friend's situation and I lent a listening ear to all her whinings and complains. I mean seriously, how to study when she doesn't have any materials with her and she told me her module is very abstract and the notes would help enlighten and guide her more. In that case, how is the school gonna produce good lawyers, doctors, teachers, etc etc when it's gonna be sub-standard sort of lecturing and lessons? Worse still, she even has a lecturer who talks only rubbish during lecture and she doesn't noe what to study for exams. What sort of lecturers are nus employing? *questioning look* Perhaps employing lecturers who are protective of themselves and worry about getting sued and not considering students' welfare? Hmm, probably more concerned about their own safety nets eh? I dunno, mebbe we shld turn to the dean's office to find out eh? even in my fac, there's also such profs around, heh, it gets real funny when this prof was telling us not to use an recording device to take down the slides as it's protected by copyright rules and he doesn't want to infringe upon the rules. And we've got patho lecturers who dun give notes, they even use the RETRO(look at the word: RETRO!) projector slides to conduct lectures. This makes me wonder where have all the 16000 dollars I pay per yr to nus goes to? Is it pure laziness on patho dept's part to keep using the old slides and not going to the new powerpt slides(when everyone is using them)? And the old slides are so hard to see that alot of the words are a strain on the eyes to read. If not for the 16000 dollars I pay every yr, I would have straight away skip the class! I'm already so pathetically broke myself, and considering that the 16000 dollars is in fact only paid for really only 6 mths of study(NOT 1 YR!) and that we've got 5 yrs of schooling in medical school, it really comes to a sizeable sum. And, patho dept pathetically insists on not giving us notes, is it also to protect copyright rules? HMMMM....and also, why isn't the govt subsidising us more and allowing medical sch fees to keep rising through the yrs?
Another thing that we all students are complaining is the inefficacy of the dean's office. Information doesn't get through and they take a long time to process documents. If anything else, the 5-day work week now makes everything worse, coz the dean's office is only opened for 5 days, of coz everything is slowed down even further. Makes me wonder why is there an increase in school fees when the efficacy of the admin is deteriorating? Isn't part of our money used to employ better workers and improve the facilities in school and why is that not reflected? Why do I get the feeling that everything is going down the drain? And, I heard from my senior(poor senior that the dean's office left it to them to randomize their batch into groups of 2 and 3s and then left it to my senior to put the groups of 2 and 3s together to form a group of 8 or 9 for the clinical groups. And my senior said that it's a very tough work and it involves a lot of mathematics.(OKAY, now I seriously wonder why most of our batch are also voting in favour of the 2 and 3s group? Our seniors have met so many problems and segregation within the group, I really think it's an unwise move. Anyway, nvm, enough said) And my poor senior had a hard time calculating and trying to put everyone into groups of 8 or 9. And then according to my senior, the dean's office said that they are not doing anymore 2s and 3s coz it juz simply too hard work on the administration part. HEY, excuse me? MY POINT here is the dean's office did nothing on the admin part, it's my SENIOR who did the work. Are we paying the school fees juz to end up doing things ourselves? And, our timetable underwent 19 revamptions. Yes, u din get me wrong, 19! before we finally got it, only thanks to our very efficient med class rep when he went to persuade the dean's office to give us our timetable. Who says we're going to be an efficient society? I doubt we're gonna be......... mebbe centuries later? Hmm, mebbe centuries not enough......
Just take a look at the universities overseas, esp those in the US. My friend who is studying in the US says their profs always provide notes and though there's copyright rules in place, it's flexible and bent backwards a bit for the students, meaning that usually the authorities close one eye when the lecturers give the students notes. And their administration in US is very efficient. I still remember the time I applied to some US universities and they were very prompt in their reply and very helpful when I told them I needed visas to be able to study there. Okay, though I decided not to go to US to study in the end, nevertheless, their efficiency has a left a deep impression on me. No doubt that I only applied to some US schools and that this efficiency cannot be generalized to all schools, but at the very least, those schools I applied to had very efficient administration. But I can't say that for those schools in uk which I applied to. Well, unfortunately, they also had some of the administration problems which sadly, I've also encountered in Singapore, such as the delays, late replies, MISSING LETTERS EVEN(though the missing letters incident occurred in uk, not singapore, fortunately)! gosh, missing letters, how can that be? at the end of it, I felt so drained and that my efforts had gone down the drain when the person at the other end told me she could not find my letters and asked me to send again. Of coz, would I choose that school even though it's reputable? OF coz not!
But alas, here I am stuck in nus. All the best I can hope for is it won't make life for us difficult and may the dean's office improve in efficacy. Not jus the dean's office, but everywhere perhaps?

I'm 20 now...

2004-10-07T15:11:00.000-07:00

Thanks to everyone for making my day and remembering my birthday! Been receiving well-wishes since last wk! haha and blur me, last wk only suddenly remembered when one of my friends called me up extremely early and sang a half-baked birthday song to me. Haha, half-baked coz she only sang 2 lines and didn't want to sing any further. Then after that, I think I kinda not really remember except for occasional sms. I think i'm getting very blur these days. Unfortunately cannot meet up with some of my friends as they were too busy, but I guess having received well-wishes from them on sms is better than nothing! At least they remembered. Oh, thanks HJ too, sorry that I so blur when you were wishing me in the morning. And I saw the sms when I was at the bus stop. And it's so nice of you to remember and keep wishing me. Hehe. One thing: I'm so lucky yesterday coz my dad happened to managed to drive by in time and give me a lift to school! so I didn't haf to take a bus at all! what a nice gift on my bday! And especially for my gang in hcjc, thanks guys so much! Thanks alot SY for coming down when it's your day off. I'm so paiseh leh when I saw you there and that you've travelled all the way. Okay, alvin, point noted and you're damn gd at crapping huh? And, SQ, you are really damn good at keeping it a secret, so much so that I thought it was juz a normal lunch and blur me, I really didn't expect you all to be celebrating my bdae with me! But then, hehe, you can keep on dreaming of your sylvester cat for I can only give you the stuff toy but not the real thing ah coz I dunno the real one.(okay, I wrote very cryptically hor, so don't scold me later) YL, I was surprised to see you too there. Oh, and thanks to WJ and lily too, though I will be meeting them today! Yay! But then, age is finally catching up with me and I'm 20 now.

2004-09-24T09:58:00.000-07:00

met up wif weijie and lily for lunch today. So happie to see my two dear ex-classmates again. Been crapping like crazy with them. There's this very interesting conversation that started btw them before I came. Weijie was complaining about how the bioinformatics lecture was useless and a waste of her time and how the prof kept crapping nonsense. Then Lily added on and went on with about all the antics the prof did. Then I suddenly asked them "is it prof xxx(heh perhaps u all can guess)?"Both of them were shocked and stared dumbfounded at me as they were surprised that I could guess and hit right on target. Actually, I was juz guessing blindly and asking them if it happen to be that prof who lectured us for biochem previously when we're in M1. Hmm, actually he would be a very gd lecturer if he hadn't crapped so much and talk all the nonsense, and diverted away from the main lecture. Ended up wif me feeling empty and a waste of my time, without knowing what the hell is going on or the main points. Waste money too! coz considering we haf to pay about 16000 a yr for medicine! (wonder whether the govt really subsidize or bleeding us dry? shouldn't they be sponsoring more? hey, we're being bonded lol for 5 yrs, come on, shouldn't they be paying more for our fees or perhaps giving us free education even?!) anyway, back to the story. I was right after all. And the same thing that happened during my biochem lecture also happened during their bioinformatics lecture apparently and that's why they were complaining away about the helplessness they felt towards the exams. Simply said, they dunno what to study. Sigh, poor thing. Anyway, here's to wish u two good luck k? Dun think or worry to much lar. Sure will turn out fine. After all, I've survived M1 biochem and the whole of M1. =)

2004-09-20T09:26:00.000-07:00

Not been touching my piano for a long time and when i started playing again, found that I've lost touch. Lost the flexibility and agility of running the scales down the keys. Must start getting more in touch wif my piano, if not it will only end up collecting dust like my violin and guzheng too. I think the guzheng strings are probably rusting anytime soon or perhaps had already done so, what wif me not touching it since I left jc. Gosh, I can't believe that I've been playing in chinese orchestra for almost 10 yrs!!!!!!!! LOL! since primary school... mebbe coz it's the comfort and ease of doing something that's the same and routine that got me stuck. But perhaps also the fun of learning some new instruments and switching instruments through my years of being in touch wif chinese orchestra. Still can remember I started out learning erhu when I was in pri school and then I decided I didn't like the instrument, and then I switched to pipa. Then finally settled on guzheng in my sec school days. But sigh, guzheng is nevertheless a wrong choice I made. What wif all the heavy practices and us being very detached from the main orchestra..coz guzheng is more of solo instrument or played in groups wif other guzheng players. Then still remember how I fell asleep on top of a file which I put on top of my guzheng during one of hcjc practices coz the practice went on till late night and I was simply too tired. Think it was an SYF. Orchestra life is very topsy-turvy. All the practices. All the demands by the instructors. Payment of lessons. Gosh.
I regretted not being able to continue my violin after sec school coz the teacher emigrated to Canada. The teacher is so nice and I really missed him alot. And he's so accomplished too. Guess mebbe it's coz such a good teacher left that caused me not to be spurred on in my pursuit wif violin.
Alas, piano is and has been the longest pursuit in my life. Years. Since I was 6 and I only finally completed everything when I was 17. What a long journey. Hours of practising at the piano. Still can remember when I was young and my legs couldn't reach the floor when I sat on the piano chair, how I struggled to stretch my fingers to play the octaves or beyond, the chromatic scales(i seriously hate scaling, even until today) and the tons of theory work I had to do.
How i used to get scolding from my teacher when I made countless errors in my theory work or when I slacked and did not practice. But it's such a warm feeling whenever I meet up wif my piano teacher. And how she saw me grew up when I was 6 until I am today. She always tells me how it amazes her to see me as I am today and it reminds her as if the day I was 6 was just yesterday when I used to like watching cartoons and running around the gardens or hall. Still can remember how i used to thump in fear whenever I didn't practise or complete my work and my teacher was ringing the doorbell at the gate and I was rushing to finish my theory...
I went to teach piano for a while and all the past memories came flooding back when I saw the shadow of myself in the kids I taught. How they would struggle to finish their theory or did not do their theory or did not practise. And their mothers would talk to me about their kids' progress. And I got this kid who would always dash to watch cartoons whenever I end the lesson. But I'm so glad when the student got a distinction in her theory! Alas, memories are memories, but it will always stay everlasting in my mind.

2004-09-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

So sad that mediacorp and sph's mediaworks are merging... does that mean an end to the raise in standard that we're seeing the TV industry? Personally, i think there's potential to channel u... oh well. All the undercutting of advert prices. But that's the world of business. And to think about all those artistes who cross over from mediacorp to join sph... wonder what will their treatment be when they return to mediacorp with the present merging.
My feet's hurting coz i can't get the dancezsneakers.. sigh. why is it that whenever i want something it always run out? out of stock?! if onli i had bought earlier. i was still debating earlier coz it's hundred plus bucks and i didn't want to anyhow waste money. but now seriously need it and jus when i need it, it has to go out of stock. and waste my effort of travelling there and coz i wanted to avoid having to pay for erp in orchard road, i had to park the car very far away, and then walk to the shop. I had to walk hurriedly coz the shop was going to close already(since the closing time is very early everyday),and unlucky me, i had onli to reach there wif the shopkeeper telling me that it's out of stock and will be coming onli about mid to end october. wat m i gonna do in btw? waste my transportation fees and parking fees too. anyway, dun like to go to orchard road on a friday night now... wat wif the saturday being a non-working day, it's damn crowded in orchard road. dun understand how pple like to go orchard road on such a busy day. it juz simply takes the fun and leisure away.

2004-09-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

Was watching "THE OUTSIDERS" (so called dou4 yu2 or fighting fish in direct english translation). The theme song, Lydia by FIR, is so nice. During the short advert period, heard this very nice piano piece, titled "terms of endearment"..if anyone has the piano score, pls pls pls lend me k??? Those 2 songs are so nice tat it's been like floating around me. Anyway, the taiwanese tv series is really very good and it has a dreamy feel around it. Dylan Guo Pin Chao is so good-looking! Gosh.. can't believe how someone can look so cool and cute from all angles. But it's such a sad ending when his character(he's acting as the main gangster leader, yu2 hao4) dies at the end. Sigh... But then again, it isn't as if that Dylan Kuo is that great actor at times too.. coz his facial expression is sometimes quite forced too.
Here's his pictures since some of you dunno him...

Haha, slacker me, watching singapore idol after that. I must say that some of the singers do meet the mark and there's definitely potential in some of them.
Yay, weekend's coming. Looking forward to a break for a while.

Just a note and acknowledgement: Just wanna put up the pics from Hoshika for a while and thanks.

2004-09-13T04:46:00.000-07:00

Another long day in school. I met up with my pri school classmates for lunch today. so fun! it feels real gd to be able to chit chat, and haf a fun time talking to them and cracking jokes, and the fact that we've still been keeping contacts and keeping up wif times juz makes it feel so great! we were talking about how we used to knock down the poles while having our driving lessons. hehe, surprise surprise, all of us either learned at ubi or are learning there! teeheehee. I still can rem and was telling them how my instructor used to suan1 me and make a big hoo-ha whenever i knocked down a pole while parking. can remember him saying, "wah, piang1! ain't the sound of the collapsing pole real loud and melodious? it's damn loud and clear at such a time in the day. sounds real nice hor the sound of a collapsing pole?..hehehehehe" thinking back, so glad that i still managed to pass the test on the 1st go with luck. must really thank my lucky stars. anyway, hopefully, we can get more of our classmates to join us next time. So jia you, SW, make sure u get ur driving licence at the end of this yr k?! kambate!

2004-09-11T04:24:00.000-07:00

been going around almost the whole of singapore today, from west to east, running errands. Then i got so hungry i think i nearly sinned by eating all the oily fried food. gosh... must hit the gym sometime soon, if not i think i haf to work harder at my dance classes if not i think i'm gonna be obese. Haha still remember when the last time I was wif yanru and when she suggested going for the porridge buffet at suntec, we're all for it and walked all the way from orchard mrt to city hall..hahahaha( in a way, to save money). and then i still can remember we're laughing away and trying to get food. so farnie! then when we realize we couldn't finish, we're joking over to pour the food into some glass bottles that's used to put bills or tissue paper or something(can't remember) and then to close the lid so that we wouldn't be spotted. OF coz we didn't do that! anyway, we felt bad over wasting some of the food and since we're on the verge of eating so much and wanting to throw up, we decided to wait around for a while and wait until the waitresses were not looking, we left as quickly as possible, haha i think practically dashing out of the place to avoid getting spotted.
Anyway, that wasn't the only time i was wif yanru at buffet. haha, dunno why everytime go out wif her to eat, we end up going to buffet... haha yanru always got good suggestions of buffet .i always wonder why, even she herself also dunno. still rem that whenever i asked her where she wanted to go and eat and after i gave some suggestions(hehe, such as olioz etc), she always ended up giving me suggestions to buffet. then we started saying,"oh dear, cannot..later we cannot finish or we want to relch or throw up if eat too much...then very wasted..", but it won't work. coz eventually either i got persuaded or we both got so enthu that we eventually headed for a buffet venue. haha. there was one time we went rice table(okay, and we swore never to eat there again coz we ate simply too much and again puked at the end. i think we're trying too hard to finish whatever that's given to us..since rice table jus keeps giving all the dishes at once). anyway, what happened was yanru and I love the fish so much that we kept topping it up. so much so that the waitress, on the 3rd time of topping up, asked us how many slices of fish do we want... gosh...lol! hahaha, and then we decided to just top up some others too, thinking we can finish. think we've overestimated ourselves, considering that we're not gluttons. and when everyone had left the restaurant, both of us, slow-eaters and trying to finish wat we had ordered, were still struggling our way thru the food. then yanru told me that the waiter who was resting at the back of the restaurant was watching us and grinning at the fact of how we were trudging thru our food. later, when he came to collect the bill, i cant exactly rem what he said, but i do rem that we both were like giving a very resigned look and actually we're planning our "escape" again since we knew jolly-well that we can't finish the food. hehe and again when they weren't looking, and after paying our bill, we sneak out again. coz we felt so sinned. so sorry to the restaurant and the food. dun think we're do that in a long long while again. hehe since yanru and me haf i think sworn to given up for a long time to buffets. dun think we wanna hit another one again any time soon given how we felt so sick after eating too much. i swore off eating dinner those days. and had to get the rest of days trying to get myself back to norm. tat's how bad overloading can be.
Hmm, still remembering what a waste that I can't go wif vic to watch the ZPOP show... sigh..missed all the interesting acts. according to her, it was fantastic. If only i could make it and was free to go. Next yr hopefully she got ticket for the concert and I can go.

2004-09-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

Congrats SQ for passing the driving test finally! YAY! (on alvin's suggestion, hehe you owe us a treat). hehehe so the swensen treat on? but if not, never mind lar, u can always treat us in school right? hehehehehe. =P since we pray so hard for u. hehe and wishing u good luck. =)
So high after coming back from jazz class... =P

2004-09-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

I've been slacking. Woke up from nap and had a heavy head. Perhaps that's what alcoholics feel when they have hangovers, but i'm definitely not an alcoholic abuser. Just watched the guess guess guess show, gosh, guo pin chao is so cute! Haha, my fren also went gaga over him. And he has a gf already and dared to admit it. Read in some magazine that he's so devoted to her. Lucky girl. So envious. Hope to get a bf like him. =P

Hmm, considering going to bangkok to shop wif my frens. But dunno leh, my parents will definitely want to go bangkok sometime this yr, dunno leh...not too nice if I dun follow my parents. Sigh. Torn.

2004-09-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hmm, we went to a spa during our Japan trip. Me and lily were quite pissed that the tour agency didn't inform us to bring our swimsuits. And we have no choice but to either buy or rent one and it's super expensive in Japan! And, later, coz we're running late, I made a mistake of dropping the spa ticket on the floor.. gosh... poor me and lily and our tour guide had to help me find. So paiseh and sorry to them! but luckily, phew phew, sweat sweat, I managed to find the ticket and got on the bus in time. But the spa is damn nice! And all the colours and smell and warmth of the water. Coolness and warmth. And we befriended some friends(2 sisters and 1 elder brother) who're studying in uni too and are of Thai-origin and went along the same trip as us. They also went along wif their Singaporean friend too. And on one of the nights, we came back quite late after going for late night shopping and hunting for cool and cheap stuffs around in Japan. However, their elder bro and his singaporean friend dump us(4 of us girls! at night!) juz to shop somemore. So we're left without the guys as protection. And the 4 of us(his sisters were super pissed that they dump them) were walking close together and looking out for each other since it's so late and we're in a foreign country. Luckily, nothing happen. HAHA,touchwood of coz. And we reach the hotel safely. =)

SQ: so what did u hear? hahahaha...

Japan Trip (Highlight)

2004-09-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

Shall blog a bit abt the japan trip. Haha, this is a teaser to the real long entry I will blog later. It's a pretty fun trip. The highlight as Lily would agree was when I was trying to feed the deers. And the deers when they saw I had all the deer food wif me, were trying to lick off my hand or either nudge me or (HORRORS HORRORS!) trying to bite me! Yikes, I was so scared that I tried to run away and Lily snapped many photos of me doing that and trying to hide from the deers. So scary, they were all chasing after me and I got surrounded in the end by the deers coming from all corners coz they saw I had food. I was panicking and Lily told me to stuff in my bag. But then I was quite rooted by then and I think I drop some of the food on the floor. And I fled. Gosh and Imagine Lily standing there and laughing until she tummyache and holding the camera. *polaroid*

2004-09-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

The food looks good, but wif a low down feeling, it's tasteless inside.

2004-09-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

Yay! I'm so happy I finally got the nuh discount card! The last time we went to ask, the aunties kept trying to make us buy the blue card. Finally, got the free yellow card. Hehe, and can get to munch at places I shouldn't. Shhhhhhhh. *wink*

2004-09-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

WJ, it's so sweet of you! so glad to haf such a nice friend in u to want to accompany me. =P

Allie: Long time no see, I'm waiting for my holidays to come so I can go HongKong to visit you and we must shop and shop and shop until we cannot take it k? I'm sure u must be having a great time right now. And thanks for liking the photo alot. hehe, very nice of u too! Know I can always trust allie and her taste. And if and when u haf a blog, dun forget to show me!

Yay, now I shall live for myself and enjoy life to the fullest. No one and nothing shall dent my high spirits.

Hmm..just realize I'm lacking a mini photo album.. those can flip with ringlets type... sigh..too bad i din buy another of those very cute ones with disney characters when I was in disneyland. Shall start hunting, or if not *hint hint* hehe, waiting for my gd frens to buy me one. Haha, think I so cheapskate. =P *kidding* Hmm..and seriously lacking another OP pencilcase after I smudged my present one that was given by my tuition kid. SOB!

2004-08-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

Oops..the photo distorted the whole thing!

2004-08-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

Got this picture from SQ's blog. (from the left), that's me(hehe, I dunno why, but I absolutely love that black skirt), SQ, JY.
That's us at the class outing.

2004-08-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

This whole period is so depressing. Lonely, Miserable. These 2 words dun seem to leave me. Shoo. Wish they will go away and bring sunshine and happiness to my life. Seriously lacking that right now. Dun wan to turn into an old hag.

Class outing today. Happy that my usual clique of friends in hcjc came. But it again showed me the true personality of some "friends", which my good friends agreed and were disappointed to see in. I've finally woken up. What a rude awakening. Class outing meant to be happy, but again, it has turned me and my gd fren at the end into being unhappy and moody. And later,another classmate of mine told me to do some things which my friends said I shouldn't be doing and they told me to stand up for my rights and say no. It's nice of them, really. Hmm, but actually, I was thinking never mind lar, juz shui2 bian4, do it for him. But then it has set me thinking.

Just heard some stories from my fren. Think it's important to get attached or marry for the right reasons, and not all the wrong ones. Dunno..maybe I'm getting into a depressed mood. Need get uplifted from this black trench.

My life is miserable

2004-08-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

My mood is very down. Feeling very terrible about alot of things. Feel like that I know alot of pple, but I dun haf any true friends. Maybe perhaps except for the steady friendships I've made with some in JC. Sometimes, I feel tat the things I do, pple do not appreciate. I'm being made transparent. Doesn't anyone understand how I feel? Just the other day, I helped a fellow classmate of mine and you know what that person did? Did not help me later when I needed some help even though I helped him early in the morning that day! I'm not asking that he must repay me or anything. But I mean how can he take it for granted that all help will fly to him! Such pple do not deserve my help anymore. I'm very disillusioned now. Being nice and helpful and all you get in return is Fume. I'm not asking for heaven or earth. All I'm asking is to be more appreciative and to be less selfish and help others in times of need. You dun expect help to fly to u everytime. And do u noe wat? He passed sarcastic remarks some more. A dog is even more grateful and appreciative than such a person. Seriously feel under-appreciated and taken for granted by some of my so-called "friends". I have no true friends beside me right now for long. How I missed the past good times. I've been disillusioned and let down by my so-called present friendships right now. When will I find a true friend to be around me right now? Is anyone listening?

I'm getting disillusioned to towards how I always feel that friendships are more important than relationships, bgr for that matter. Maybe coz I've not found a true friend. Only friends who took advantage of me. That's enough already. I'm getting tired and really want to put an end to this. And, I'm getting tiringly sick of how one of my very gd frens put me aside and forgot about me when she found a new bf and only come to talk to me when she broke up wif her ex-bf. Maybe that's why I'm single. I believe too much in friendships. Gonna vent my frustrations about friendships. It's time to start changing my mind.

2004-08-26T06:23:00.000-07:00

Singapore idol rocks. Still prefer a local version to an american one. Just the flavour of it.

2004-08-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

Sigh , the south korean got better and better as the match went on and she won eventually, even though Jiawei had got the better of her and won the 1st game. Too bad. Singapore lost again. Another 4th(2nd time since Jing Junhong). We seem not to have the luck to win at Olympics. Sad. We shall have to try again and hopefully win a medal during the next Olympics. Think Zhang Xueling might be the new star to watch and root for.

2004-08-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

I am so sad that Singapore lost to North Korea in the table tennis olympics semi-final match. I've been rooted to the front of the tv the whole time the match was on. Such a close fight! Actually, it should never have been a close fight coz Li Jiawei is obviously a much better player than the north korean. If only she had kept her cool more and if only the backhand tactic works everytime. The korean is obviously very weak in her backhand strikes. It was such a close match and what a waste even though jiawei had been winning at 1st! The korean is just world no.40, but jiawei is world no.8!!! And the fact too is that the korean always pulled a long face and is so damn NOISY! such an UNDERHAND TACTIC of the north korean to distract opponents by making lots of shrieks and high-pitch animal-like noises! That's extremely rude and she shldn't deserve to win! Anyway, it really casts a very bad light on her fellow countrymen.. the way the behave. Simply Barbaric. I have nothing more to say about their atrocious behaviour. If only Jiawei had avenged the defeat of her fellow teammate, zhang xueling, and did Singapore proud! Okay, Jiawei go on and jia1 you2 and bring back the olympic bronze medal to Singapore! U deserve it at the very least!

2004-08-14T07:50:00.000-07:00

Just watched the "quan2 min2 ou3 xiang4" on channel u. I've been catching the tv program quite regularly. There's this contestant who I think does haf the idol characteristics, as well as the x-factor. Indeed, I think x-factor is very impt to succeed in the entertainment circle and of coz, to survive (to put simply). Of coz he does haf the looks. But looks aside, if u're an empty shell , then it's just too bad, coz u ain't gonna make it. And he can really sing and speak well. Haha, as my frens all know, i'm always very envious of pple who can sing coz singing is my weakest point. Anyway, he got into the finals and I shall be rooting for him. Hmmm..he's a uni student apparently too, so maybe that accounts for why he can converse so well. wonder wat fac he's in.

2004-08-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

Sigh, I just went for the jazz dance class. The teacher is very good. But ever since he brought in the senior dancers, he rely on them more and taught less. He left alot of the demo to them. Like that how to learn to be good? Sometimes the senior dancers also made mistakes like how the legs were bent when they were not supposed to... I think even if learn from them, the most u can become is 2nd best since they are obviously only 2nd best compared to the teacher who's very established. I mean pay money of coz want to learn from the best right? Wat for u pay money onli to learn from his senior students? and it's not free lol! Besides, if u learn from the 2nd best, the best u can become is still only 2nd best, not the best. Obviously, the senior dancers are no where near the teacher. Sigh, i'm gonna start looking for a new teacher n a new dance school elsewhere though I really find it very welcoming and comfortable in that dance school. Oh well. Shall start searching.

Many taxi drivers are horrible drivers

2004-08-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

Can't understand how some taxi drivers are allowed to be cruising on the road. Look at wat happened below:

This happened to me a few days ago. I was signalling right to move onto the expressway. And I was ahead of the comfort taxi on the next lane. Guess wat? The taxi driver simply suddenly speeded up when he realized I was ahead of me and I think he wanted to race with me,nearly forced me to crash. I had no choice but to slow down... PHEW, lucky no car behind me. Horrible, Horrendous taxi driver. Think he owns the road.

Another horrible comfort taxi driver. I overtook him and he was superbly unhappy and he purposely overtook me and turned around to look at me and gave me an obscene sign! I was utterly disgusted.
VERY DISGUSTED INDEED.

This time a yellow tibs driver. Simply cut lane and change lane without signalling. In fact, MANY taxi drivers do that. They really pose a big hazard on the road. Not a wonder that taxi drivers cause many accidents. Very irresponsible indeed. Hope some day we can be rid of such irresponsible drivers.

But that's not to say that all taxi drivers are bad. Of course there's GEMS among the SHIT. hehehehehehe. Like how this taxi driver let me come out 1st coz I was stuck there and all the cars were zooming past me or blocking me from coming out of the petrol kiosk.

And of course, there's always irresponsible motorcyclists and other drivers. Another thing to watch out for are the motorcyclists who love to squeeze in btw the cars and are impatient to juz anyhow zoom and anyhow change lane. TSK TSK. BIG HAZARD to others.

Some drivers don't signal when they change lane. In fact, haha I got friends who do that. Wonder how anyone dare to sit their car and don't they realize they pose a danger to other drivers too? How would anyone know their intentions right?

Pedestrians too. Notice that many foreign nationals brought along their bad habit of jay-walking from their country to Singapore. ESP irritating when u drive along Little India and Geylang.....SO Pls don't cross the road when it's red traffic light. And DON"T JAY-WALK or even walk on the road shoulder of expressways. EXPRESSWAY!!! my god! I had to avoid one when I was driving on the expressway and had to straddle two lanes. And I was lucky no cars near me and no one horned me.

Lorry drivers, esp those foreigners.. u noe those foreign nationals especially who drives those construction workers... They think they drive a huge vehicle can intimidate others.

And some of the vehicles spew out dusty smoke... terrible...wonder how come the authorities overlook them?

Where's the traffic police? what are they doing? I really hardly see them nowadays. Sigh...just when we need them to maintain orderliness. Hmm..wonder where have the income taxes that our parents pay gone to?

2004-08-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

hmm, anyway, dunno wat's wrong wif blog. had to do a few times juz to get the thing right coz it's either this missing or that part missing..then haf to rewrite. mebbe it's my fault for moving the webpage back and forth...hmmm

2004-08-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

Met up wif my hc 79 classmates. It's such a great feeling to be with my good and close frens together again. Can laugh and joke wif ease. Felt great and really happie. It's our gang again yay! But, sad to say it's onli transient, but i'm definitely looking forward to meeting up more wif them! Hehe, hope Sq can meet me for lunch tmr coz i'm meeting my 79 seniors tmr too!

Haha, one thing tat my frens keep asking me abt was the fact tat i've not been blogging some time already (sorry abt that! just getting lazy and once school starts, it simply saps ur energy.) and tat i've never blogged abt my japan trip (though i did okay for uk trip!) haha sorri pple for such a late blog. okok, as i promised and tat u pple haf enthusiastically(haha) proclaimed tat u all want to read my japan trip and kept asking me abt it, I shall (tata) blog abt it. Yes, okay, I WILL! But one thing 1st, i shall not blog today. but this weekend okay? when my thoughts haf settled and still adjusting to school reopening rhythm, i will. So wait a while keke? dun say i never keep my promise. Coz i always do keep my promises. =P

okay, enough blubbering. anyway, b4 anything..i got saboed by my frens.. haha and i got kicked by wj coz i was teasing some stuffs jokes. so sorry wj tat i mistook ur well-intended and good intentions to pass me tissue papers( though i took a lot from u.. haha i'm a sucker for tissue papers) coz i tot u wanted to trap and sabo me. anyway, wj must take care okay? dun work so hard at popular and stress urself out! and definitely meet up wif us more lar! and sorri abt that aunty joke dear... =) Well, we (me, lily, sq, wj, a and l)went to swensen icecream for the topless 5 discount at 1.39(plus everything becomes 1.60) FINALLY! haha, been talking a lot abt it and i finally got down to it today wif my frens. We're all at the canteen and dunno how the ball started rolling bigger and yes, we all went to swensen's finally. hehehehe. Oh and the 3 of us girls squeezed into a seat.. hehe that goes to show how NOT FAT we are! hehehehhe.. anyway, the icecream is very nice and definitely the discount helped! yummy strawberry, butterscotch, mocha almond, choco peanut butter(i think so), as well as yam. My favourites: strawberry and mocha almond are definitely very nice! yummy.. anyway, i always LOVE strawberries..the sweet succulent and red ripe strawberries. absolutely cannot do without them! hehehehehe. Oh, jamie was telling me she fell sick after eating swensen icecream and so did my few other frens...hrmmmmm.... i hope we are safe! hahaha... wonder wonder.

hmm, but i realize something..i was so happie and hafing such a great time wif my frens tat i simply became blur and oblivious to the surroundings. juz simply puts me at ease. I wish to haf that feeling everyday. My 79 great pals..I MISS YOU ALL! wish you all had come to med wif me too. It's lonely without my great pals i've befriended in hc days. Maybe the saying goes tat wat u dun haf , u treasure more realli best sum up the situation. But dun worry, haha i'm not going to sink into depression or watever. This is not self-pity. =) coz we'll still get to meet up more and anymore canteen lunches pple? I'M ON!

2004-08-05T06:26:00.000-07:00

It's back to school tomorrow for me. No more waking up late and other luxuries already.

2004-07-31T07:20:00.000-07:00

Sigh, went to HC carnival at abt 2+pm..by then was quite late and many of my friends had left. Just too bad that I can't get the car any earlier from my dad. Hmm..HC changed alot, still can remember the days I got drenched from the rain coz there was no shelter to the busstops. The overhead bridge had no covered shelter and there was no sheltered walkway leading to the 2 busstops(one on the same side as HC, the other opp the school). So sad that HC is gonna merged with tchs and will lose its unique identity and have a new name in its place. Gone are the school song, as well as the uniforms and badges too.

Dunno why i'm sounding so sad and melancholy these days. Will have to be more positive, optimistic and start cheering up. Guess too many things are bothering me these days. Haha, shall start right this instant by reading Baby blues comic which I luuurrrve so much. It's simply HILARIOUS!

2004-07-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

I watched this tv programme on channel u called len2 nuan3 ren2 jian1 shi4.. and it's so touching! too bad, i onli caught the 2nd half and missed the 1st episode. Anyway, it was about this brother and sister who i suspect has epilepsy(correct me if i'm wrong) and how they struggled on their road to recovery. It's so heartwrenching watching them how they struggle to cope with the daily routine and physiotherapy while undergoing treatment in Taiwan. What's so particularly sad is what we think is normal day-to-day activities such as eating, sleeping and walking is considered a humongous task to them. They have difficulty feeding themselves and are bed-ridden. Fortunately, they have the help of kind Singaporean donors (i'm beginning to feel that there's indeed many kind donors out there) and their devoted mother. It's especially touching when the elder brother tried to speak with difficulty about their appreciation for concern towards them, as well as the donations that have poured in.
then later i watched this programme about missions in 3rd world countries, how social workers, doctors and nurses travelled to places such as Sierra Leone to help provide medical care to the poor. I nearly cried when I saw how this little boy's leg had to be amputated coz of bone cancer. It's made even sadder for me since with my limited medical knowledge, i know that in most cases bone cancer is terminal, esp when it's secondary malignancy. Sigh... All these juz remind us to treasure life more and live it to the fullest. Must treasure every little thing and give more help to others in need.
Anyway, here's to wish the brother and sister a speedy recovery and all the best!

2004-07-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

sigh.. my old injury that's been plaguing me since end of j1 has returned. Argh.. my left knee hurts again.. overstrained the ligament injury.. sigh.. looks like i've got to stay put and miss out on my usual routines and stuffs. SOB!

Pick-up Lines

2004-07-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

Well, didn't blog about me popping by medicamp on tuesday. It was quite fun and met up with the juniors. But too bad I couldn't go for the campfire on wed night. Anyway, I heard some funny stuffs. There's this pickup line session that candidates for mr medicamp had to undergo in order to get the girl they want. And it was the usual stuffs that most of the contestants said, such as about how they think the girl's pretty and want to ask her out. Hmm.. but I think guys may haf to start thinking of something witty, but not disgusting and run-of-the-mill pick-up lines soon. According to my friends, the highlight of the session came when this guy blurted out, "I have a problem...Everytime I see you, my floppy disks become hard disks..."

Gosh! tat's highly erm..unusual right? what do u all think? But I don't think it will work..... ? Maybe try something wittier and definitely not lame and usual stuffs like "u're pretty, can i ask u out?"(which one of the contestants did)

Bad service at Lingzhi Vegetarian Restaurant

2004-07-21T05:32:00.000-07:00

Gosh..I can't believe how we were made to wait outside this Lingzhi Vegetarian Restaurant in Liat Towers and looking like idiots in the process. When we reached the restaurant, we waited patiently outside for a waitress to serve us and usher us to an empty table. Unfortunately, all the waitresses did was to stare at us and look past us(perhaps thinking we're INVISIBLE!). Simply put, they ignored our presence completely as if we don't exist at all! Even to the extent of the waitresses chit-chatting among themselves. It was quite disappointing as we had travelled all the way there looking forward to an enjoyable meal, esp with what we heard abt how good the food and service are. Apparently, we're in for a rude shock. The restaurant is definitely out of my recommendation list. It's such a disappointment. Really wonder how a business can survive with such HORRIBLE SERVICE! Haha, perhaps enter the restaurant only when you dare and decide to wait like idiots outside it.

2004-06-26T06:57:00.000-07:00

Oh, btw, Good luck Shiqian for ur driving test on Monday K? And sorry la tat I din adjust the pictures properly, causing all the words to be misaligned.. haha I know it's not that easy to read.. KK, alvin I will do that when i'm free and in the mood. hahaha =P

2004-06-26T06:38:00.000-07:00

Gosh, it's a wonder how the exchange rate for Japanese Yen has sky-rocketed to almost 16.00 now... to think that I was lucky enough to get it at slightly lower than 16.00... gosh.. and must not forget how notoriously expensive the Jap stuffs are(with peilin confirming that). and i've learned my lesson with the money changers..how they can change their words and not keep their promise.. hmmpf.

Anyway, as usual, horrible and irksome drivers always get to me. How some people block the way, or anyhow stop and pose unnecessary danger to others, or even worse, some simply just love to horn even though u realize that they are speeding and decided not to change lane and keep to your lane instead. But as my dad says, just keep your cool and IGNORE. Those are just irritating pests out to create nuisance and it's not a wonder if they get into accidents themselves. Oh, and I simply can't believe and it's a WONDER how some people can still cross the road and pretend nothing's happening when the traffic lights are showing a RED MAN! One even glared at me and thought she was in the right when I signalled and horned to warn her coz I was travelling at quite high speed since I just turn out of the expressway. Does she and those others think that life is so cheap that they can simply throw it away? And don't forget that they are not only posing a danger to themselves, but are also posing a danger to drivers too! I won't want to lose my licence or get suspended or fined just because of such errant pedestrians! Where do they think they are? London? When I was in London, there's alot of jaywalkers and people simply crossed the road even though it says not to walk. HEY! This is not London or India or wherever have you, this is Singapore where jaywalkers can get fined! Hmmm... are the traffic police sleeping? I really think these errant pedestrians should get fined. I always must be on high alert and look out for such people. Or better still, ESPECIALLY young kids, they LOVE to dash across the road without looking.. IT's DAMN scary to me coz I always have to jam the brakes.

Oh, I just went to the Chef chan's restaurant.. and it's quite good. The crispy roast chicken is a must, with the crispy skin fried to paper-thin and succulent meat. Yummy.. hehe. But must call up to reserve seats! wah, the 1st time I went there, my parents and I didn't know and we had to go somewhere else. Imagine our disappointment in going there all the way to realize that we're being shown the DOOR! HMMPF! But then, there was an irritating fly which totally destroyed the experience and ambience.. hmmpf. next time must ask for a table very very deep inside the restaurant. Otherwise, the food's fantastic. Much better than alot of the restaurants, esp those in UK where we spend 24 pounds for a chinese meal and as my daddy says,"dunno what we're eating..probably junk."

Anyway, yeapie, will be going off to Japan soon with friend. Yay.. but my parents are worried coz of some reports they read. And they were asking me if I've packed my bag...and the answer is....haha, a resounding NOT YET. haha. Anyway, Just hope to have fun there and have a great experience and be safe there. Then after that have to get ready for medicamp.

2004-06-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

Went for my dance class today.. mebbe coz I'm still suffering from jetlag terribly(when will it go away? and let me return to normal soon pls!), i was like zoning around and kind of let my mind wander. Mebbe coz of that I got picked on by the teacher..oh dear... and got scolded for not concentrating and focusing.. the teacher's voice still resonating in my head right now, "Focus, focus..."

Oh, here are the photos I promised to upload.. aren't they so beautiful? haha..the ones with the colourful flowers =)

This is taken at Shakespeare's wife, Anne Hathaway's house. Look at the beautiful flowers planted outside her cottage. By the way, read my earlier entry on the trip to UK and u will realize how low the ceiling is in the cottage and how dull and drab a colour the furniture, especially the cupboards, is. There's no central heating too, so it gets very cold in the winter. In fact, 11 generations of Anne Hathaway's family stayed in there until the early 20th century. Apparently, Anne came from a wealthy family. However, did you know that her marriage to Shakespeare wasn't approved of at 1st? When she married Shakespeare,(if I'm not wrong, pardon me if I am), she was 26(which is very old in those days) and Shakespeare was 18. Shakespeare also came from a wealthy family.

Another view of the Lake District. Notice the colourful flowers outside the mansion, but I think the resolution is too poor to see clearly. Sigh... Anyway,there's a small gate too by the side of the picture.

2004-06-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

I'm still in jetlag mode and I couldn't sleep yesternight, and eventually I woke up at noon today! Gosh! It was a rush as I had to meet lily. Worse, I left my handphone in my dad's car and I had to use a public phone to call her as I can't find her in the Mrt station at 1st. The stupid phone ate up my 50 cents! I thought it would refund me the leftover change since I only used 10 cents to call her. Apparently, lily had been waiting for me at the old mrt station, and as expected, I was waiting at the new one. Anyway, we then went to book a tour to Japan. Yay, I'm so excited and happy since I've never been to Japan before,and so is lily. Then we went to watch Harry Potter 3. It's so nice and funny at times and the special effects were great! Anyway, I begin to realize that nothing beats being at home and I do miss Singapore in fact after being away for a while. Still, it's safer at home and I felt more at ease and comfortable. Coz it's still HOME basically. Nothing beats being at home.

2004-06-15T07:43:00.000-07:00

I juz uploaded some pictures taken while I was touring England and Scotland:

This is taken from a bridge in Bath.

View of buildings in Liverpool.

Changing of horse guards outside Buckingham Palace. Sorry that I don't have the changing of footsmen inside this computer's folder. Will upload it when I have it. Anyway, I am very fortunate to have been able to see the changing of guards, especially that of the horse guards coz it's not frequently done and it's quite a grand occasion. The horses are so huge and pretty too.

Lake District. Beautiful isn't it? Nice place and I wish to stay in a house in Lake District(by the lake) when I retire. But then, I'm very young right now. Haha, so I may change my mind again. But it's definitely a very beautiful and peaceful place. =)

Lake District. I have better and more beautiful photos of Lake District, with the colourful flowers. However, they are in another folder, so I will upload them later.

2004-06-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

By the way, I feel so out of touch for not being in singapore for 2 wks! Just 2 short wks, and I felt that I've missed out alot. Dunno wat's happening in singapore. Apparently, there's lot of things going on..wat's this bai liu li bai song? And wat class outing and chalets? Pple, when you read this, pls update me k? Coz i'm so lost since touching down in singapore not too long ago.
*lost*

Trip to UK

2004-06-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Hey pple, I'm finally back! But yikes, i'm suffering from jet lag right now. I onli slept 4 hrs at night and then been sleeping in the afternoon coz i'm still in uk time zone since uk is 7 hrs behind us. i'm in uk time zone..sigh

Wow, the trip is real fun and shall blog onli the highlights, since I coz there's too many days, I might get mixed up. Ask me more if u wanna noe. By the way, I absolutely abhor taking plane! How i wish I can teleport from one to place to another! the turbulence is so bad tat I threw up on the return flight to singapore and worse, airplane food is always so bad even though it's SQ! believe it or not, I had to keep asking for instant noodles since I want to puke everytime I smell or touch airplane food. Oh pls pple, now when I go out, no more Mcdonalds or KFC or burger king or fish and chips watsoever for me right now for some time! And their portion is so huge tat u haf to share. their harry ramsden fish n chips is said to be the best in uk and very well-known. but when i tried, it's normal. mebbe singapore fish and chips can beat it too. NO WAY AM I GOING TO EAT THOSE FOOD AGAIN! I MISS SINGAPORE FOOD! I had continental breakfast the whole of my time in uk! 2 wks of continental breakfast!!!!!!!! YIKES! the same everyday! I can also name it. even though we changed hotel as we moved from different parts of uk, the variety is almost always the same: hashbrowns, tomatoes, egg(scrambled or omelete), toast, croissant, fruits(mind you, the apples there is so expensive! MY mum commented tat it's like eating gold! shall tok abt the UK price rates later), mushrooms, cereals, the juices, bacon, sausages. YIKES! in the end , i felt like puking.

Did u noe, the breakfast in the hotel cost 12 pounds per person every day!!!!!!!!!!! n did u noe that the exchange rate in uk is 1 pound to abt 3 singapore dollars? okay, it's more than 3 singapore dollars right now, i juz checked, it's abt 3.3 or even 3.4!!!!!! tat's like more than 36 singapore dollars for each breakfast!!!!!! SHOCKED!
And the SQ flight is no better, $1300 for to and fro flight! And their clothes there are so expensive, the cheapest is abt 5 pounds(but very few of that), mostly abt 12 pounds or more range even though it's summer sales! Okay, as zw says, I've got to stop converting the price range to sing money! this is like 36 dollars sing! okay, but my daddy allowed me to buy a few coz it's real nice. Then their clarks shoes are so nice! i absolutely love it, so do my mum. Haha, poor daddy! coz pounds is so ex, it comes to hundred plus a pair! BOO HOO.. okay, my daddy says juz this holz. it ain't so bad the last time I went to uk coz it was abt 1 pound=2 to 2.5 sing dollars then and things were cheaper then, their clothes then were cheaper.my daddy says when i return to singapore, must control my spending to make up for my
"loss" in uk.

Oh, n the most memorable place is in scotland. Scotland is beautiful! will show the pics someday when i'm done. the green rolling pastures and the cows, rabbits, horses , squirrels( saw them close up too..so CUTE) in their natural state. Nice, small cottages. It's so like switzerland and new zealand! but do take note tat their cottages look nice on outside, but inside the ceilings are so low and rooms are so small and stuffy and many lacked central heating, so it becomes very cold in the winter. Oh, btw, luckily for me, i brought my sunglasses coz it's so damn shining hot the weather there. their weather is like so hot and dry, but then got cold wind, so it becomes like u're in aircon room of abt 22 degrees(the nicest weather is in YORK btw) but the sun is shining at u. for summer, the day ends very late and the sun onli sets at abt 10pm and it rises at abt 4am..so very long bright day right?

Okay, but the most memorable place in scotland is Gretna Green. Have you heard of that? it's a place wif blacksmith shop. you may ask, wat's so memorable and nice and beautiful abt that? Well, runaway marriages are performed in that blacksmith shop. When the anvil priest clangs the hammer on the anvil, a marriage vow is sealed. In the old victorian times, many couples are forbidden to be married by their parents as their parents do not think tat they are of equal status. So wat happens is that the couples elope and run to gretna green to get married as scotland has liberal marriage laws. In scotland, as long as you're above 16 and have 2 witnesses, u're allowed to get married. It's still the same today. But in singapore, the legal marriage age is 18. hehe, so if anyone wants to get married before the age of 18, hehe, u noe where to go right? hehehehehe...
so, why gretna green out of the whole of scotland? well, gretna green lies at the border btw england and scotland, so it's nearest place enroute from london. there's so many nice stories about the elopment and how the girl's or guy's father or uncle chased after them(usually is girl's parents) wif a pistol and on horses and carriages and tried to stop them. and the girl's mother collapsing or in ill health.Ask me about it if u wanna noe. =) but there's also some tragic stories of the girl's father or the girl's new beau( the guy who the parents designated to marry the girl) killed the girl's husband after the marriage vows are sealed by the anvil priests. but then, some pple then wanted to cash in on the marriage trade which is very horrible of them. anyway, wat's so nice abt the place was that I saw a couple marrying at gretna green the day i was there! so sweet! and they also conducted mock weddings on our tour group and a fren of mine kena. hehe, luckily i din kena the mock wedding.
Wouldn't it be nice to have a wedding done at gretna green since there's such a long history? Hehe, maybe when I get married, I will haf a go at gretna green. =) But hor, there's no one now, so oh well... hahaha
then i got this souvenir from our tour guide showing a small anvil, sigh so sad my daddy accidentally threw it away wif our tour bag coz he din noe i put the anvil inside. sob sob. oh well, wonder what happened to it now?
oh, edinburg is very nice! the scottish pple like to pronounce it as "ed-din-bur-ruh" haha..dunno why. their scottish towns are very small and very brick like.
Btw, their cottages as i was saying is very small.I visited many. Like those of shakespeare's house, jane austen's (my favourite english literary write, I absolutely love pride and prejudice... the witty elizabeth benneth and the fairy tale ending. hehe, dunno why i always love fairy tale endings. hopefully, one will happen to me too. =P) and wordsworth's. the cottages are so small, the ceilings are so low! n the bed is so small. according to the guide, it's coz the pple are very short then and we've grown taller over the ages since victorian times. anyway, i realli dunno how they lived in there. the furniture is all of a drab brown or black colour. so dull! I think if i see it for a long time, I will feel very down and sad. n u noe the room that william wordsworth's children stayed in..is so small, perhaps one-third of a room of our houses. n according to the guide, it's very cold since there's a beer room below where they store their beer and wine, so they had to put newspapers on the wall to keep it warm. poor thing. can't imagine how they stayed!
Anyway, as usual, we visited alot of cathedrals. it's the same..u see one, u see all. stained glass windows.. but then alot of famous pple are buried in some of the wellknown cathedrals.
As usual too, visited alot of castles. There's a lot of haunted stories since many a times, there's executions being carried out and prisoners... anyway, i visited the edinburg castle which queen mary of scots stayed in. the castles are all very opulent and u can see how grand it was in the past. All the crown jewels and guards.. u realli can imagine.
Oh, one thing, I finally saw the changing of guards(footsmen and the horse guards) at buckingham palace! So lucky! the horse guards are seldom seen and I'm real lucky to catch one that day. the horses are huge and I saw them close up as I managed to stand at the front, and there were police to keep us from going too close. Oh and one of the horses tried to bite me and it kept sniffle at me and the guard had to rein it in.. i was so freaked..haha n everyone was laughing. so embarassing.
oh, i finally finished the whole of london! yay! coz we extended. walked alot and took the tube. their tube is okay actually, but cannot compare to singapore since their services cannot be guaranteed. sometimes not good service and u noe they got strikes one lol. n the tube rocks a lot and very noisy too!!! their pple rush abt alot..so never take during the rush hour..to dangerous. And it's damn expensive! 4.30 pounds for a day's ride and onli for a zone! the whole of london divided into 6 zones and if u want a all zone ride, 11.90 pounds! gosh! so ex! must rem to times 3! and hor, the 4.30 pounds is for no matter how far, as long as within a zone and u can take onli from 9.30am to midnight coz rush hour is more expensive, but u can take many rides btw 9.30 to midnight using that one ticket.
As i was saying, york's weather is damn nice! juz nice! not tat sunny, and very cooling, like as in aircon! juz wear a teeshirt and jeans can liao! no need to bring anymore jacket or watever. and the place is so nice, absolutely like u read in books. a drawgate and walls around the city and shops selling sweets and chocolates, fresh fruits, souvenirs,etc. their shops are like these: small counters juz outside the windows. low ceilings. glass windows wif rods(i dunno how to describe) tat run outside it, so dividing the windows into small grids and squares. and then, many glass containers of sweets displayed on small shelves which u can see through the glass. and then victorian roofs and cobbled streets and flowers hanging from the victorian covered walkways. And many pple busking too! very nice music. esp, the spanish guitar playing. very nice and unique. romantic too..haha but cannot beat paris or rome or eastern europe i think.
the stonehenge is like so expensive too! 10 pounds if i not wrong per person! juz to see some unique stones sigh and haf to pay alot. realli, and they purposely fence it up. sigh... so cannot get too close.
Visited bath too and saw the place where jane austen stayed in. So nice! Btw, lake district is an absolutely very beautiful place to be in! nice calm waters and nice flowers... oh tokking abt flowers, i saw so many daffodils, daisies and buttercups! did u noe that when u put a buttercup below ur face, it lights up ur face and glows yellow? so nice! anyway, lake district is very nice, and hopefully i can buy a house there to stay in for my retirement but it's damn expensive! haha, so must try to work hard and earn enough. Won't it be nice to take a stroll down and haf a nice house overlooking the sea wif ur family? wow! so nice!
I also saw trouts for the 1st time alive at the dove cottage at cotswold! I was so excited. anyway, haha too bad i'm not a football fan coz we visited the manchester united and liverpool stadium...
Oh, one more thing..manchester and liverpool are like small town cities... many of them are alike. throughout england, u will see many brick houses and quite dull on the outside. but many a times, it's quite nice and modern inside. so never judge a book by its cover.

Sigh, by the way, so sad. I still haven watched harry potter 3 though it's been running in uk since 31st may. coz uk pounds are simply to expensive and my daddy doesn't want me to waste on unimportant stuffs since i can watch it very cheaply in singapore. still singapore stuffs are cheap. So, shiqian, u already watched liao..sob sob..dun wait for me and at 1st,u say will wait.,.then later u say i will watch in uk. see...i din.. also sq airplane fault, show wat..the starsky and hutch and other movies, except harry potter 3. DAMN. but then also the turbulence making me headache, i also wun see much perhaps even if they do show. Oh, before i forget, did u noe that one plate of plain fried rice wif a bit of egg and vegetables cost 3.50 pounds in uk?! that's like abt 10 sing dollars for a simple plate of friedrice at a takeaway stall in uk! 10 dollars for a plate of fried rice?! my mum's right, we're definitely eating money or gold. a meal at a restaurant is abt 60 to 70 sing dollars. gosh... but then it's a vacation still and it has left very nice memories etched in my mind. I've made many new friends, explored new and unique and beautiful sights, learned many things, became wiser and noe how to deal on my own. At the very least, I've grown up and become more independent. it is indeed a very enriching trip, coz it's unlike others i've been to. and though i've been on school trips and travelled on my own, this is different.

2004-05-31T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hey pple, I'm blogging right now at the departure hall in terminal 2, using their free Internet service. =P Yay, so happy that I'm going to be on my flight to manchester in about an hour's time. Thank you to everyone who wished me bon voyage and thank you esp to SQ for writing such a sweet para in her blog. Okay, shall blog more when I come back on the 12th June. Will tell you guys more about my trip to Scotland and London then. Maybe, I will even blog and go online when I'm overseas. Shall see how. Anyway, keep up with you guys when I return. =)

2004-05-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

Went for kickboxing class with YR today. The teacher is really nice again to extend it to 2hrs for us. Some of them are very friendly and talked to us and we got to know them better. Then we went to shop and to check out the money changer. Gosh, it went up from 3.06 to 3.07 today... sigh...not again. It's damn expensive! YR also went to buy a pair of track shoes and the guy who served us is damn funny and kept saying "yeah, yeah, yeah". Haha, maybe he thought it's cool, but then both me and YR agreed that it became comical and irritating since it kind of obscured the message that he wanted to put across.

Then yesterday I was searching for that song, oh it's actually called: holding out for a hero by jennifer saunders. Well, I can't find it and there's something wrong with my computer. It ended up with me going HMV to buy the shrek2 cd. Oh well, okay, I'm lidat. When I'm crazy or really like a tune or song, I will search for it. Sigh, now i'm poorer. Sob sob. Who ask no one to send me or give me the cd? hahaha..kidding. And I'm listening to the cd right now.

I had jazz class later at night and I am all bruised right now. Coz we had to do this sliding on the floor(floor exercise) as part of the dance sequence and change leg position at the same time and then get into a particular stance and I accidentally scraped my knee. Then coz I forgot to straighten my arm when I land to use as support, I also bumped my elbow. But then, it was very fun though still coz I had the company of my friend, May.

Again, inconsiderate drivers just simply irks me. Some car drivers just don't give way even though you have the right of the way. And some think that just coz they drive lorries or big vehicles, they can intimidate you into giving way to them or they drive over into your lane. Such people should get booked or given demerit points.

2004-05-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

Met up with my hcjc classmates, lily, xf, and SQ today. Yay! It was quite fun and nice and it's been some time since we last met. Quite a sweet occasion as we talked about the past and what's happening around us, as well as our future aspirations. =) However, as I had already watched van helsing with YR the other day and SQ wanted to watch Shrek2, I accompanied her. Although I didn't watch Shrek1, but I can roughly guess what Shrek1 is about. Shrek2 is very funny and there were many critical and cryptic allusions made towards Hollywood itself. Then, there is this superbly nice song, called: Holding out for my hero, and the version sang by Jennifer Saunders is nicer than the original version sang by Frou Frou('coz we went to Borders to check out the cd later to know the title and singer). So, whoever who has that song please send me please PLS? Haha, it is so nice that I can't stop humming the tune. The faster version sang by Jennifer Saunders is extremely catchy and tuneful.

Later, other classmates met up with us as they were going esplanade to watch the choir concert. I didn't think of going at 1st until my friends persuaded me to. But by then, another of my classmate had bought only 1 ticket and 'coz I didn't want to sit alone, so I didn't go in the end.

2004-05-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

I saw this very CUTE advertisement on the newspaper showing a civet cat(not sure whether is it a civet cat though..) with cucumbers on its eyes, and the caption was saying that it's doing a facial so as to present the best appearance to the public when we visit the night safari. I thought it was so CUTE that I asked my mum to see. And u noe my mum's 1st reaction? Haha, she say.."aiyoh, wat's that?" sigh.. she din think there's anything special about it. Oh well, guess my mum's very different from me with respect to wat's cute. =P But I think the advert is very successful in attracting pple's attention, esp me.

Anyway, I went to check out this dance school which my friends were talking about. The teacher is very nice and warm and she even danced with me and demonstrated some moves to me, even to the extent of telling me what's the class was about. But little did I know(okay, my parents noticed) that she's actually not a she, but a transvetite. My mum was naturally concerned and she din allow me to join the school. Okay, no offense to transvetites. Maybe, we're just not comfortable and actually I got a bit shocked and traumatized coz I was so taken in and never realized that it's not a she and I actually danced with her. Really, she doesn't have an adam's apple(maybe too small to notice) and her voice ain't that rough(okay, my parents told me that's like thai transvetities)... Admittedly, she does have dark skin and rough features, big bone structures, but maybe I've overlooked coz she was wearing baggy dance clothes and she was so warm, nice and friendly. I shall be more aware now. But then, I do think that she's a good dancer and a good teacher, especially since she knows exactly what she is teaching and talking about. And coz of her bone structure, she can withstand more pressure and stress than female dancers. But then, I wun be joining the school, sigh .. which is a bit sad coz she's really good.

I've started packing my bag for my trip to UK. Wah, now UK pound exchange rate is so high that it has sky-rocketed to about 3.07! Sigh, if only we had changed earlier.. coz we're undecided and wanted to adopt a wait and see attitude to see if it will drop. Looks like it will be a while before any of that sort happens and it will be on the climb.

Oh, when I was driving out of a parking lot, I was so surprised to see a lorry going on the opposite direction to the normal flow of traffic just so that he can get a short-cut. He was simply oblivious to what's happening around him and the safety of pedestrian. That's so inconsiderate of him!

And some drivers are EXTREMELY INCONSIDERATE when they turn on to the high beam at night. Some of them even changed their car headlights to those high powered beam. They are so blinding! I had to turn down my rear mirror or try not to look to avoid getting blurred by the blinding headlights. The changing of the car headlights is against the law. Do they ever read the highway code?!

Then there was this lady driver, she just simply sped down even though the lights were red. And this lady pedestrian just simply crossed the road even though the traffic lights showed a red man and she was not allowed to cross. What's the world coming to this days? Do this people treasure their lives? Why can't they spare a thought for others?

2004-05-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

Yay, today YR arrived early and we went to the kickboxing class together. It was very fun and intense, as the instructor gave us 2 hrs instead of the usual 1 hr. So nice of him! He even made us count out 1 by 1 and do it in time and we had to repeat many times until it's perfect. Quite different from other type of dance or workout classes. Moreover, we got to learn how to block, duck and defend ourselves. I thought that's pretty cool, since it is a fusion of yoga, taekwondo and combat training. At least it can arm us with a few defensive moves. However, kickbox is not like the usual taekwondo or karate since we don't learn how to throw or any of the violent or explosive moves. It's a milder form and there's only a bit of sparring. Too bad I've never been allowed to learn taekwondo or karate or gymnastics, since my mum doesn't think it wise and she thinks that it's too rough for a girl. Anyway, YR and I were trying to follow the blocking and attacking moves when the instructor told us to group into pairs. But then too bad YR will be flying off soon (and me also), so it will be a while before we go back to the classes.

Sigh.. my mood now is pretty bad and low..sigh, I can only hope everything settle soon and everything will turn out alright. May the truth prevail.

Tired day

2004-05-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

Today, YR and I went for the kickboxing class. Unfortunately, as YR was late, the teacher advised her not to waste money by attending the lesson, and come this friday instead. The lesson was very fun and I had a great time trying out all the moves. However, it was quite sad that YR cannot join and so sorry that she had to wait for me. YR was quite disappointed and she made it a point to come early this Friday. YAY! =)
Then we went to lavender to visit the army market together with YR's friend, xf. It was very enjoyable and the whole time we were laughing as we got lost in lavender! Can you believe and imagine us getting lost and trying to find our way out to the mrt station in singapore--lavender?! It was like a maze, with all the hdb blocks and xf got quite lost as she was making many rounds walking about. Haha, and blur me, and us too, haha, we ended up realizing we're walking right back to where we were originally. Anyway, we went to suntec to shop and then I met my dentistry friends. What a coincidence! Actually, I've met a lot of my friends in suntec, even more than in orchard.. I wonder why... For instance, I've met Karen countless times in suntec such that we were no longer surprised and laugh it off. I've even met Karen at taka once, before we entered med fac. Hehe, what a small world it is!

Jazz

2004-05-17T06:49:00.000-07:00

I was disappointed at 1st that YR couldn't accompany me to the jazz dance class today as she had something on at the last minute. But then YR will be going with me to the kickboxing class, just hope she dun break her promise. =P However, YR cannot go with me to japan anymore. So oh well, hope next time got chance lol.
Anyway, the jazz dance class was real fun and the music is very nice. I made quite a few new friends and the teacher had been very friendly and helpful. At least it was stress-free as compared to the ballet classes I used to attend. The teacher who taught me ballet then was horrible and would always shout at us and pass sarcastic and humiliating remarks if you made a wrong move or happened to dance a beat too slow or ended up in the wrong position. In fact, jazz dance also incorporates a bit of ballet, especially the pointe, 1st to the 5th positions. I still can remember the echarpe that the teacher taught us and in fact, jazz does use a bit of that. Heh, maybe I should practise more to perfect the moves. I think at the end of the day, jazz is cooler than ballet and I enjoy it more.

Gathering

2004-05-16T09:37:00.000-07:00

We had a nice gathering of my pri sch classmates. Okay, must apologize that I was late coz I went to buy stuffs for my friend and to shop for clothes. =P Anyway, most of us were late and then we decided to go marche to have our dinner. Haha, as usual, I was making so many rounds round the stalls since I had absolutely no idea what to eat. Hehe tat's so me, as my friends would agree. We chatted about lotsa stuffs until I got so blur and kaili was saying I wasn't listening to what she was saying and ended up talking about something else instead. Heh, I didn't mean to, don't know what came over me today anyway. Perhaps, it was because of the phone call from my junior that woke me up so early this morning and I couldn't sleep after that. So, I was quite tired and lost track of things happening around me.
Anyway, we went to watch Troy later at about 9+pm and by the time it ended, it was near midnight. In fact, alot of cinemas, such as the one at orchard cineleisure, was booked full and we had to travel all the way to shaw tower to get our seats. I must say that the special effects and the staging in Troy is spectacular. However,they changed the storyline and it was a bit different from the original story of the war between Troy and Greece. Nonetheless, it being a huge production, is a not bad show. But the ending was so tragic and sad that I cried in between. Almost all of the main characters, such as Hector, Achilles, etc died. The most emotional part was near the end of the show when Paris shot Achilles. Okay, I shan't reveal too much in case anyone protest that I spoiling the fun before they watch the movie. =P

Dental appt...

2004-05-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

Woke up quite early today coz i had an early dental appointment. I've always been quite fearful of dental appointments since young. Maybe it's coz of the instruments that they use and the fierce and brash dental nurses we come across during our pri and sec sch days where they would bark out your names and ask you to sit on those frightening chairs and rudely force their instruments into your mouth. I still can remember this story of how a dental nurse had pulled the wrong tooth out of my friend's mouth and after that, she had nightmares about it. Not a wonder that she din choose the dental course, but went into medical course instead.
Phew, fortunately, the dentist is very nice and patient. Forgot to mention that this is my 1st visit to this dentist. At least, she didn't bark and was extremely nice. =P Luckily, there was nothing much and I was soon out of the clinic.
Later in the day, my parents and I went to SA tours for our tour briefing and we're unfortunate to get this frontdesk personnel who was quite rude to us. I was talking so nicely to him, and what I got in return was rude and crass remarks. I thought being a frontdesk personnel, he should have been more pleasant, friendly and helpful towards customers. Not a wonder if all the customers will leave eventually.
Just now, YR was telling me about how sad she was that she cannot go on her trip. Hopefully, she can go Japan with me. I think Japan is a beautiful country and the culture seems cool, yet at the same time, interesting and colourful. She was telling me about the cosplay stuffs. Really hope we will get to go and see! =)
Hmmm..sometimes I wonder..you know, if I hadn't taken up medicine, I would have gone into professional music I guess. Was talking to my parents and my piano teacher long time ago, then it juz kind of struck me. Well, my parents have always been very open and enlightened towards my career choices. They let me do almost whatever I want. Hmm..but I dun regret and will live life as it is.

Busy day...

2004-05-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

Okay, was too busy to type a post yesterday...
I had my hrm exams in the morning. What an open book exam it was! I was practically busy copying from my lecture notes. Haha, my friends joked that maybe we should photocopy or better still, cut out from our lecture notes and paste onto the exam script itself! =P This will no doubt save us time and energy. Imagine having to reproduce what's inside the lecture notes onto our exam scripts! That's what made our hands so tired and aching after writing dunno how many countless words. Besides, we're killing trees to produce the paper that we're writing our answers on.. Oh, K and JY were joking that it's the 1st time that they see the lecturers or examiners being more concerned and anxious than us over the exam paper itself. lol! haha
We met Prof Hwang at the angel's restaurant coz we came in 2nd for our ssm project presentation(that's quite a surprise in itself).It was quite a nice gathering with the prof. Throughout the ssm tutorials, Prof Hwang has been a very good and nice tutor and provided the necessary guidance. Only hope he will be teaching us again in m2 and so on...
Oh, btw, my mum went to see a doctor and she's getting better. Yay! so happy, can't wait for her to get well soon, definitely must get well before we fly off to Scotland and London for our long awaited trip!
Later at night, I passed by a stationery shop selling files that had cute hamsters and rabbits pictures stamped on them. It was so much cheaper than the ones me and HY saw at kino stationery section the other day. Haha, the people shopping at kino were looking at me and HY 'coz we were cooing and going ga-ga over the cute pictures on the files and the very kawai(cute in Jap) paper boxes and letters! but then, as HY said, though the boxes and letters are very pretty, but the price ain't pretty at all! too bad, she and I can only stare and look at the kawai stationery, since we both dun want to burn a hole in our pockets 'coz it's really very expensive!
Oh, I almost forgot to mention about how terrible the traffic jam on the highway to Rochor was.. wah..the traffic simply slowed to a crawl, and the cars on other lanes were trying to cut into our lane. That's so unfair! We queued so long in the lane, and waited patiently for our turn, but other cars just force their way in. Some are quite rude too, and even blow their horns. Maybe it's time for them to reflect on their behaviour...

The day my mum fell and injured herself...

2004-05-12T06:12:00.000-07:00

The day started out fine. I had my hrm lessons, though i fell asleep halfway through the lecture.
The tutorials were quite fun and interesting since the tutor managed to enliven the class.
Later, at about 5+pm, as I was driving on the way home, I saw my mum waving at me to hitch a ride home. Gosh, I got a shock when i saw she fell into a crevice and injured her leg!!!
She can hardly walk and i had to hurriedly send her to see a doctor. It was only then I knew that she had torn her posterior, anterior cruciate ligament. Oh dear, now she can hardly walk and was in pain everytime she tries to sit down. My mum's getting old already and seeing her in so much pain really hurt me alot. Now, all the housework has to be divided between me and my dad. And my mum didn't want me to do the chores, though I felt terrible...

1sT EnTrY~

2004-05-12T06:10:00.000-07:00

Hey pple, I noe all of u are surprised tat I've finally created a blog of my own. Since dunno when, perhaps eons ago, so many pple kept asking me why i din want to keep a blog.. well, my answer has always been tat I dun wan my private life to be public.
Well, I changed my mind and tata here's my blog.